Not Working

I am not allowed to work. Not for the last 3 months, or for another month. I'm not really travelling either, to save much needed money for life.

Thus, I have been faced with the ultimate problem that has faced me all m life. Focus.

I've watched all the youtube there is. I've played enough video games that any parent would give me the diagnosis of square eyes. I've read books, but the one thing I haven't done, is focus on my art.

By art I mean drawing and writing.

I am a creative person but it sometimes requires other things to be happening at the same time. Like math class, or an essay that will prove my final grade. Thus sometimes I struggle with focusing. (It has taken me three days to write this).

Anyway, I have found some other mediums I enjoy now, and not every one will agree or understand them, but I'm still really in to watching gamers play their games.

Unrelated, I'm working on this YA style novel I wrote back in university, which had been a way of me revisiting the silly antics and pronounced stereotypes of my teen years, but now I think could be a good way of looking at it all in a different light.

Additionally I saw some cool snow leopard art on deviant art's facebook page that made me want to keep plucking at  a story on snow leopards and snow hares.

Listening to the vlog brothers and some rock and roll, counting it down to a month before I have to leave the coutnry. I'm sad and excited, but I'm struck by this personal fear I've developed of the government. A sort of paranoia. I'm following the rules, but I'm just fearful of being taken away, a black bag in the night.