Love, the merger of a number of desires, feelings and needs, is the glue that binds us.
How do you decide? How do you look at the whole wide world and say this one place is the place you and I are meant for? How do you move along a river and know this is the best place to stop, when there's still so many unseen miles a head?
The question of "where you gonna live?" has been brought to me so many times by loving family members, friends and half regulars from the local booktavern. Its such a hugely emotional question and the simple answer is I don't know.
They always want to know if he or I have been seduced enough by either side to warrant roots as they have but it is not the case. I love trees, and I love plants, but I am not one. I've never been them. My roots are with the man I love. It is apart from he that I feel my most starved for water and sun.
We both have people on either side of the ocean who have built ourselves to who we are now. Its such a hard thing to ask which one. If it could be so I would make it so it was both. I would make it so.
If I could I would fly across the ocean, any time I wanted.
Also Dream Report: I Dreamed last night (Jan 10th, 2016) that I was a shape shifting green dragon. I lived in a palace/castle that was also a Home Depot. The princess didn't like me, thinking me suspicious. Even dangerous. I transform and flew out over a field. It was dark, but a faint light shone bellow. I landed and found a boy in a hut looking over a dark pool of water. There was a little river feeding it. The banks are thick with peanut butter. We could mine it, I suggest, and make enough money for the princess to stop hunting me.
The dream ends there, with me plotting the sale of peanut butter to home depot princess in the form of a great green dragon.
Wow. Those words! That was beautifully written.
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